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To the one that marks the spot
I always thought about how people have so many different needs and how it is heavy to wish to have them all from the same person. I...

Vanessa Leite
May 9, 20232 min read


In the hope
You like poetry. And I tried. I tried to count the syllables; I wanted to make them rhyme. But I'm prose. I live through a flow. It was...

Vanessa Leite
Apr 1, 20233 min read
Agradecimentos
É o fim de uma era. E eu não posso deixar de agradecer às pessoas que seguraram minhas mãos, enxugaram minhas lágrimas, trouxeram...

Vanessa Leite
Mar 17, 20234 min read
Acknowledgments
It is the end of an era. And as such, I want to thank everyone who held my hands, dried my tears, brought a smile to my face, and gave me...

Vanessa Leite
Mar 17, 20234 min read


I don't want it anymore
I wish things were different I wish we were still together But, as contradictory as it seems I don't want to be with you anymore I wish...

Vanessa Leite
Mar 14, 20231 min read


On letting it go
I've been having a hard time because you left me in the dark not so long ago. I've felt completely lost, forgotten, and left behind. They...

Vanessa Leite
Feb 6, 20232 min read


Technical debts - how to pay it off
Technical Debts Technical debt is the result of prioritizing speedy delivery instead of good code. It encompasses bugs, legacy code, and...

Vanessa Leite
Jan 31, 20233 min read


PhD Candidates meet ETH Executive Board
On the 25th of January, 2023, following up on an event organized by 500 Women Scientists about sexism, harassment, and microaggression in...

Vanessa Leite
Jan 27, 20233 min read


It's over, 2022
December is gone already. 2022 is over. It's incredible to stop and see the number of things I could do. It's rewarding to notice I still stand.

Vanessa Leite
Dec 28, 20222 min read


How to develop software — a basic guideline
Software development is an art. And, as art, there's no unique definition of what's right and wrong. Of course, years of research (and...

Vanessa Leite
Nov 16, 20228 min read


My masks in sex - and that’s not a kink
I always had a high sex drive. And, even though I was married for a long while, I got to experience things that my friends couldn’t possibly dream of.

Vanessa Leite
Jul 31, 20223 min read


Don't be afraid of being afraid
It's been stressful times. I feel my heart pounding more than ever. My muscles contract involuntarily. And I know: I'm afraid. There's so...

Vanessa Leite
Jul 4, 20222 min read


Me, all in words
(I just found this text I wrote a long time ago about myself. How much of it is still me?)

Vanessa Leite
May 24, 20224 min read


I'm fine! Totally fine! Idk why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, cuz really, I'm fine.
spoiler alert: I am not. It has been a couple of rough days. I have presented my Ph.D. project to my institute, and I got quite some...

Vanessa Leite
Mar 3, 20222 min read


I won't be there
When we move abroad, we make a pact with ourselves (or, at least, I made one with myself): make the most of the opportunity. We know we...

Vanessa Leite
Mar 2, 20222 min read


Can you feel it?
My heart is pounding.

Vanessa Leite
Feb 23, 20222 min read


When things derails
Not sure about you, but I am often making plans. Sometimes they are not super serious, sometimes not even long-term, but they are quite often there.

Vanessa Leite
Oct 10, 20213 min read
Eu reprovei.
Reprovei meu exame de qualificação. Acabou meu doutorado.

Vanessa Leite
Jun 19, 20193 min read


Doutorado: fazer ou não fazer?
Sai do Maranhao em 2010 decidida a fazer meu mestrado e meu doutorado. Terminei o mestrado em 2012 mas não entrei de cara no doutorado. Fiquei de "ir fazendo uma pesquisa e quando tiver alguma coisa pronta, aplicar", mas não aconteceu. A vontade de fazer o doutorado ainda existia, entretanto, todas as coisas do dia-a-dia faziam a "pesquisa" ir ficando de lado. Certa vez eu ouvi: "se você precisa estar num doutorado para fazer um doutorado, você não devia fazer um doutorado".

Vanessa Leite
Feb 8, 20173 min read
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